ambiguous commentarian trivialities of the declaritory "dys-working" class, and other blues riffs

a few things non-contextualized
a few things contextualized
i turned my gears for a few minutes
thought i should write some of it down.

this doesn't necessarily reflect real situations, but is more of a continual manifesto and digest of thoughts.
in other words, it's not a vent-rant, it's more of a philosophical meandering, and has no real thesis or proof to struggle with.

in surreal estate, or any other business i'd want to be involved in, i don't think anyone should be getting paid for work that they wouldn't do for free anyway. the fact that we have to continually gravitate toward a system based on, "so, does that mean we get to get PAID?!" is sad and unfortunate. i thought we were trying to transcend that model. financially-driven bottom lines force out good intentions, because good intentions aren't maximized by how much somebody gets paid. in fact, the more money one makes, the less they seem to give a fuck about the world, and more about sustaining their dependence on cash-flow. if someone has to get paid to not be a do-little or do-nothing in surreal estate, i wouldn't want to work with that individual. once working in a white-collar cubicle farm, my first week had gone by, and i asked the guy next to me, who seemed like a laid-back fellow, "you can't tell me you actually like your job." he replied after gloomily looking around him, "let's just say it pays the bills." now that's entirely the wrong attitude you want to model your life after if you're looking to not get trapped in money dependencies, where you do nothing in your life to sustain your ability to hold certain standards to classic American living and peer-reviewed status. i think, at least until surreal estate becomes a more developed business with regular, reliable income, if you're going to get paid to work, you have to become a deeply invested person, in interest and focus -> show your worth to the system and make it known. be a geek-> be creative and get fucking good at it. then, get paid to do it. those who have already deeply invested themselves into surreal estate, i believe should be compensated, no doubt, once they help get the place on its feet financially, as it's one of the most basic principles of living, and especially living comfortably-> but not wanting to live comfortably because they don't want to give a fuck? how admirable is it to have to be babied through the process of communal living, waving dollar bills in the air? those who are are fully invested and naturally take charge will have other people relying on them out of necessity, as they will (hopefully) be the teachers of the so-called "next generation." it's a part of living dynamics as a human being, in 2009 or 1126. real life doesn't have guarantees and insurance. it's human beings that have created these systems of service. the idea that human beings need reliant guarantees and personal services as the sole fundamental reasons to not only trust, but to engage the world at all is a completely demoralized, unfervorous, cynical, disconnected, and egocentric relationship to their perceived externalities. even though it is beautiful and poetic to just "FLOOOW MAAN", nothing ever gets done without hard work - work that becomes even harder as individuals become demoralized, unfervorous, cynical, disconnected, and egocentric about their involvements. oh no, the ants have built their hills out of concrete and i cannot stampede them. responsibility, stewardship, even harmony can/will be expressed in terms of education. education requires personal involvement and engagement. utopia is a T.V. thing. i've run out of time.