ambiguous commentarian trivialities of the declaritory "dys-working" class, and other blues riffs

a few things non-contextualized
a few things contextualized
i turned my gears for a few minutes
thought i should write some of it down.

this doesn't necessarily reflect real situations, but is more of a continual manifesto and digest of thoughts.
in other words, it's not a vent-rant, it's more of a philosophical meandering, and has no real thesis or proof to struggle with.

in surreal estate, or any other business i'd want to be involved in, i don't think anyone should be getting paid for work that they wouldn't do for free anyway. the fact that we have to continually gravitate toward a system based on, "so, does that mean we get to get PAID?!" is sad and unfortunate. i thought we were trying to transcend that model. financially-driven bottom lines force out good intentions, because good intentions aren't maximized by how much somebody gets paid. in fact, the more money one makes, the less they seem to give a fuck about the world, and more about sustaining their dependence on cash-flow. if someone has to get paid to not be a do-little or do-nothing in surreal estate, i wouldn't want to work with that individual. once working in a white-collar cubicle farm, my first week had gone by, and i asked the guy next to me, who seemed like a laid-back fellow, "you can't tell me you actually like your job." he replied after gloomily looking around him, "let's just say it pays the bills." now that's entirely the wrong attitude you want to model your life after if you're looking to not get trapped in money dependencies, where you do nothing in your life to sustain your ability to hold certain standards to classic American living and peer-reviewed status. i think, at least until surreal estate becomes a more developed business with regular, reliable income, if you're going to get paid to work, you have to become a deeply invested person, in interest and focus -> show your worth to the system and make it known. be a geek-> be creative and get fucking good at it. then, get paid to do it. those who have already deeply invested themselves into surreal estate, i believe should be compensated, no doubt, once they help get the place on its feet financially, as it's one of the most basic principles of living, and especially living comfortably-> but not wanting to live comfortably because they don't want to give a fuck? how admirable is it to have to be babied through the process of communal living, waving dollar bills in the air? those who are are fully invested and naturally take charge will have other people relying on them out of necessity, as they will (hopefully) be the teachers of the so-called "next generation." it's a part of living dynamics as a human being, in 2009 or 1126. real life doesn't have guarantees and insurance. it's human beings that have created these systems of service. the idea that human beings need reliant guarantees and personal services as the sole fundamental reasons to not only trust, but to engage the world at all is a completely demoralized, unfervorous, cynical, disconnected, and egocentric relationship to their perceived externalities. even though it is beautiful and poetic to just "FLOOOW MAAN", nothing ever gets done without hard work - work that becomes even harder as individuals become demoralized, unfervorous, cynical, disconnected, and egocentric about their involvements. oh no, the ants have built their hills out of concrete and i cannot stampede them. responsibility, stewardship, even harmony can/will be expressed in terms of education. education requires personal involvement and engagement. utopia is a T.V. thing. i've run out of time.

Availablility of information for Democratic decision making

Speaking of clarity, I do think there needs to be some work with
transparency of information. For me, transparency is more than simply
not hiding anything. It's a start, but it's not the whole thing. For
me, transparency includes the ability to find and interpret
information without the need for an intermediary. If I have to track
someone down to get information that's important to me, it's not
transparent. It's readily available, true. But not transparent. To me,
transparent means that an individual has to choose to ignore
information right in front of them. This is a very important
distinction because transparency is an important component to moral
and ethical action within a community governed by consensus.
Otherwise, what winds up happening is that information - and therefore
power - remains in the hands of a few. That's pretty much how this
society works already. If we want to do something different, if we
want to make Surreal Estate something that works outside of those
parameters, we need to guard against slipping into habitual patterns.
And this might bite me in the ass later, but I'm seeing a lot of the
same old shit I see everywhere else. I'll talk about it in detail in
person, but not here.

Importance of Good Feeling

empowered or motivated. for me, and i mean for me, it doesn't make a lick of difference whether we achieve the label of consensus or communal. if that's what the masses are looking for, i'm all for it. for me, living with a group of good-natured people that are generally responsible, creative (in whatever sense), and did i say good-natured?...is the issue. even having everyone looking toward and supporting a concerted goal seems only so sufficient to the _enjoyability_ factor - which is a massive factor. i do not believe in strict rules - not under _these_ circumstances..i believe in guidelines....because the most important assumption is that we will be living with good-natured, reasonable people. creative endeavors are extensions of the human condition contained within these spaces. creativity...even if it means having a dialogue with a man on the corner - has an enormous ability to create a euphoric air or outlook on a person's life. i think within the community, and well beyond that - to the physically outward, extended community that we will inevitably possess - we will be better received by the terms in which our relationships with each other [hopefully] thrive, and not how our model of living thrives. it should be well-understood that most people living here are in their young 20's and fresh out of college or whatever and from time to time they will think "what am i doing with my life," like an extension of the fear of death or getting old, and they will turn toward other means to get what they feel they need to achieve personal accomplishment. whether or not we become idealistic manifestations of consensus or communal warriors, always making sure they are suppressing their personal egos, continually going beyond themselves to recognize the impact on those they coexist with, i think a very small amount of people here, if any, won't ever have endured some form of discontent - because it is fundamentally _likely_ in the flow of emotional chaos.

i think what we have here is special, and i'm doing what i can to build something great. that's my abstract. for me, it has less to do with the way it is expressed.

-Subduction Melarky.